Great =/

Well, isn't life just PEACHY!

Ugh, is it really impossible for people not to annoy me... or do I just have the face which is screaming MAKE MY LIFE HELL! ? Yh, nice, I get flour and coke poured on me and then they decide to pour pepper, PEPPER in my HAIR in school! And my group of friends are the ones that get kicked out of the hall for chucking stuff when it was the idiots sitting next to us AND they do nothing when I say/complain that they were putting pepper in my hair... I ended up finding more and more as the day went on and I was in tears, so much so that I could probably filled a swimming pool with them. This is the reason I hate school, because I know that there will be people there like them waiting for me...

Even my friends seem to like involiving themselves in the 'Lets annoy Shelly' thing, I can't trust any of my friends, I tell them a secret, and they tell everyone, at least I have the curtosy to actually keep the secrets when they tell them to me and yet, they don't repay the favour. Even when I ask them to swear on their lives they go and tell everyone... Especially if it is a secret about who I wouldn't mind going to prom with or the person I like. Jeze, don't they get what a secret is? They obviously don't know the deffinition of SECRET and should look it up in a DICTIONARY!!! GOD!

I AM SO UPSET/ANGRY LATELY! People just don't know how to leave me alone... No wonder why I feel so upset all the time. Maybe next time one of them asks what's wrong with me I should tell them to shove of and stop being nosey and look around at what is actually happening to me in my life, the way they can't keep secrets, can't involve me in anything, etc etc...

Oh, and is it me, or do I feel like my family are either too over protective, 'in your face', or just don't make me think they care about me... The way my Dad enjoy's annoying me so much, making me feel like he doesn't love me even though I know he does, sometime's I feel like I could just run away and hide just so I can be alone. No one in my house seems to respect the fact that I actually like to be on my own and the reason I sit in my room with my music on loud with the door closed, is because I WANT to be ALONE! And be left to do what I want.

What's even better is that I'm going to Ireland on Friday, great, 'in your face' Irish people everywhere who find it rude if you don't like the music they are playing and you wear your earphones in at a party with family and annoying 60's music... Can't they think it's not rude for one night and let me sit in the corner on my OWN listening to MY music on my iPod? I would love it soooooooo much if they would! But it looks like that's never going to happen =/.

I feel like crying so much, no one understand how stressed I feel without them being horrible to me and thinking that certain people are going to start harrassing me again... Just so you all know, if they do again I'm going to the Police, they have no right to be doing it, to me or anyone else because they have been doing it to my best friend as well, and we both agreed that if they do it again, we will walk to the police station and report them, like we should have done the first time they covered us in flour and coke.

I really feel like having a go at some people in my year and certain teachers, I can't handle how much pressure the teachers are putting on me, I know I don't have much longer in 'Required Education', I know I have my Mocks next week, I know I need to catch up with my Art Coursework, I know I have the rest of my GCSE's in May.... I DON'T CARE! JUST SHUT UP FOR A MINUTE AND LISTEN TO ME SO YOU KNOW HOW UPSET I AM GETTING BECAUSE I AM SO STRESSED OUT!!! YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE BUT YOURSELVES!!!!!!! :@

I really need to find a release of all the built up energy, other than hitting someone, this blog does help me slightly, (THANK YOU WHOEVER CREATED THIS WEBSITE!!! I LOVE YOU <3!!) I can get out what ever I need, without having to confront my family and friends, if they want to know they can come and read this, it's so much easier for me than saying it to their faces because chances are they are not going to listen to me anyway, I swear my friends don't really care about me, like I care about them, maybe if they seemed like they acctually cared I might change my mind, and if they didn't go around telling my secrets I might trust them again, but for now on I am keeping secrets to myself because I'm sure I have got friends that I can trust I just don't know who they are yet, I wish I did though...

I just wish that my life was different. That I actually enjoy it as much as I should, but I guess that is never going to happen seeing as I feel totally alone in this world at the moment and that no one undersatands me... and as I write this I am suposed to be doing Homework so I guess I should stop my rant for now so...

Bye xx