tears keep coming...

Well, I can't really say that life is at it's best, because it isn't, and won't be any time soon.

Cried yesterday, yes, I have already said this. At school I cried today, sitting there in the Physics lesson with Spencer on one side and Jack on the other was not a very good idea for me... nearly snapped again, came this close to actually hurting them and getting suspened, not the first time I nearly snapped but that brings back bad memories. And I do not want to remember them thank you very much!

I remember when I had the power to not cry, WHERE THE HELL DID THAT ABILITY GO?!?!?!?!? JEZE! I really need to stop crying so much, my Mum is getting worried, and when she gets worried, I get annoyed.

Oh, and as I am on MSN right now, some Year 9 who I'm friends with sent me this...

"so all your anguish and pain will go away for atlewast the amout of time u cuddle me but just think about some little yr9 LIKES you ,and u may see this person as some lil kid u hang around with but he likes u more than the others and more that the flirtyier 1ns that just apper to him like porn ure better than that u show feelings so i hope u feel better reading this and hugging me tomoro"

I was like awww, but now I don't know what to say...

Anyways, um, hmm, kinda akward now, nothing to say, except I am tired of pretending that I'm OK around my friends and family, its getting anoying now.

I really don't know what to do now :S

Anyway, Bye xx